I thought I slept well last night.
I think I thought wrong.
I am so TIRED.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
If You Nap all Day is it Still a Nap?
I don't even care if it's not a nap if you nap all day...I had 5 days off, and they were relatively busy, and now worked 1 day, and have 1 off (for babysitting) and then work and then on Saturday I'm going to a Introduction to the Enneagram (it's a personality thing that I expect to tell me why I'm a bad decision maker and only make plans that never get followed through...so just you wait...I'll be living overseas by Monday!)
Actually, I work Monday. And babysit next wednesday, and work Thursday and Friday and babysit saturday and work monday and tuesday and thursday and saturday and sunday and monday and tuesday and thursday. Then March is over.
I think I'd like March to be over NOW. Then I can go to Norquay and see lovely people and, Psalms are soothing, and by then I'm going to need soothing. Or the world will have become all Psalm 88 on me. It's only been all Psalm 88 on me once before, and I'd rather not go back there.
Speaking of Bible-y things, I realized that I wrote a panicked blog about having no ideas for Lent and never wrote the next one about having too many ideas for Lent, or the one after that about how I couldn't narrow them down and now have like 4 things for Lent.
1. Added: random acts of kindess every day...which is challenging, in a couple ways: I did it last year, and mostly did things that I was comfortable with, helping people who I am close to already. This year I'm trying to edge out of my comfort zone and do things for people I don't totally know all that well. It's also challenging because I tend to be all-or-nothing and I seem to think that my random acts HAVE to be huge lifechanging events, and I forget that little random acts like, calling my grandparents are good things to include and not at all cop-outs.
2. Subracted: weighing myself. Because that is a negative way in which I measure my value, and I truly believe that God wants me to measure my value in some sort of qualitative way that has nothing to do with weight.
3. Added: working on some scripture memorization, specifically the Sermon on the Mount, while also going through my Sermon on the Mount class notes from CBC. I've pretty much acknowledged that I'm not going to get through all 3 chapters, but I am at least halfway through the 1st chapter (although...technically that part is just re-memerizing what Kristina and I learnt while walking in Spain), but it is something good to dwell on...even though sometimes, when I'm falling asleep and trying to recite it, somehow it becomes the ABC's..."Now when Jesus saw the crowds he went up on a mountainside and sat down. His disciples came to him and began to teach them. He said, "ABCDEFG..."' Yeah. That's the NEW TNIV version.
4. Subracted: all beverages except water, this was an idea someone else had to remind them to be greatful for the water we have and the abundance we have in general, because so many people in the world do not have clean, fresh water available. At first I really missed juice and pop and coffee. And my boss tried to convince me that tea is really just water with salad in it. But I'm keeping on, and it is getting easier. I had a coffee on Sunday, and it was good, but didn't make me want to leap of the wagon. I'm getting by on water, and truly do appreciate the fact that it is available along with so many other things.
That is all. I suppose I ought to let my dog out and then go to sleep. If I can't nap all day, I'm sure as heck gonna try to nap all night!
Actually, I work Monday. And babysit next wednesday, and work Thursday and Friday and babysit saturday and work monday and tuesday and thursday and saturday and sunday and monday and tuesday and thursday. Then March is over.
I think I'd like March to be over NOW. Then I can go to Norquay and see lovely people and, Psalms are soothing, and by then I'm going to need soothing. Or the world will have become all Psalm 88 on me. It's only been all Psalm 88 on me once before, and I'd rather not go back there.
Speaking of Bible-y things, I realized that I wrote a panicked blog about having no ideas for Lent and never wrote the next one about having too many ideas for Lent, or the one after that about how I couldn't narrow them down and now have like 4 things for Lent.
1. Added: random acts of kindess every day...which is challenging, in a couple ways: I did it last year, and mostly did things that I was comfortable with, helping people who I am close to already. This year I'm trying to edge out of my comfort zone and do things for people I don't totally know all that well. It's also challenging because I tend to be all-or-nothing and I seem to think that my random acts HAVE to be huge lifechanging events, and I forget that little random acts like, calling my grandparents are good things to include and not at all cop-outs.
2. Subracted: weighing myself. Because that is a negative way in which I measure my value, and I truly believe that God wants me to measure my value in some sort of qualitative way that has nothing to do with weight.
3. Added: working on some scripture memorization, specifically the Sermon on the Mount, while also going through my Sermon on the Mount class notes from CBC. I've pretty much acknowledged that I'm not going to get through all 3 chapters, but I am at least halfway through the 1st chapter (although...technically that part is just re-memerizing what Kristina and I learnt while walking in Spain), but it is something good to dwell on...even though sometimes, when I'm falling asleep and trying to recite it, somehow it becomes the ABC's..."Now when Jesus saw the crowds he went up on a mountainside and sat down. His disciples came to him and began to teach them. He said, "ABCDEFG..."' Yeah. That's the NEW TNIV version.
4. Subracted: all beverages except water, this was an idea someone else had to remind them to be greatful for the water we have and the abundance we have in general, because so many people in the world do not have clean, fresh water available. At first I really missed juice and pop and coffee. And my boss tried to convince me that tea is really just water with salad in it. But I'm keeping on, and it is getting easier. I had a coffee on Sunday, and it was good, but didn't make me want to leap of the wagon. I'm getting by on water, and truly do appreciate the fact that it is available along with so many other things.
That is all. I suppose I ought to let my dog out and then go to sleep. If I can't nap all day, I'm sure as heck gonna try to nap all night!
Sunday, March 4, 2012
What Makes Blue?
Blue. It's how I've been feeling. My sinus thing keeps coming and going, and when it's here the pressure is so intense with the occasional stabbing pain in my ear. I wish I knew if it is because of allergies or some sort of infection I can't shake. I suppose it means another dr visit. Sigh. The worst part of making a dr appointment is the whole trying to get ahold of them thing...I always end up on hold for 10 minutes and then get told to leave a message and never get called back. Although, I shouldn't complain, since in Edmonton I got to experience the joys of NOT having a GP and the walk-in clinics you get to deal with instead.
This whole church plant thing has me on the verge of hysterics. Ugly-crying-hysterics. I know it is a fabulous thing that the church is able to expand and reach out to the city in another location, but it is taking ALL my new friends from church and some of my dearest old friends. I don't have the time, level of commitment, or the skills needed for being a part of the church plant, so I just get to say goodbye to everyone. And I am not a crazy die hard fan of that. It makes me just want to vanish into the background and hide out somewhere so that goodbyes just don't have to happen. Yay for withdrawing! Lifesaver.
I think I have decided that I LOVE the transplant part of my job...which is kind of sad because as much as I love the transplant part, it's not the only part, and I don't love the other part as much. I think it's incredible though. Ooh, ear stab.
Tomorrow is a Briony day. I'm psyched. She usually jumps around all excitedly when I show up...which is heartwarming, and who can stay blue when someone ADORABLE is excited to see you. Who can be blue then?
G'night.
This whole church plant thing has me on the verge of hysterics. Ugly-crying-hysterics. I know it is a fabulous thing that the church is able to expand and reach out to the city in another location, but it is taking ALL my new friends from church and some of my dearest old friends. I don't have the time, level of commitment, or the skills needed for being a part of the church plant, so I just get to say goodbye to everyone. And I am not a crazy die hard fan of that. It makes me just want to vanish into the background and hide out somewhere so that goodbyes just don't have to happen. Yay for withdrawing! Lifesaver.
I think I have decided that I LOVE the transplant part of my job...which is kind of sad because as much as I love the transplant part, it's not the only part, and I don't love the other part as much. I think it's incredible though. Ooh, ear stab.
Tomorrow is a Briony day. I'm psyched. She usually jumps around all excitedly when I show up...which is heartwarming, and who can stay blue when someone ADORABLE is excited to see you. Who can be blue then?
G'night.
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