Thursday, June 11, 2009

So Much to Think About

Today I convocated. Today I dressed up in a cap and gown, a crimson and white "hood" and I walked across the stage, shaking hands with important University officials.

Today I listened to speeches about how much we have achieved, and how much we have yet to achieve. My favourite speech was the one that quoted Dr. Seuss. If you know me, you will not be surprised at all!

Today I saw friends who I will probably never see again.

Today I took pictures with a couple friends.

Today I threw my hat up in the air...I'm terrible at the hat toss.

Today we all went our separate directions. To be nurses. To be citizens. To be whatever we want to be. To "climb our mountains" "think of all the things we can think" and remember that "Every person's a person, no matter how small"

Today a representative of the Alberta government told us that our skills and knowledge will always be put to use in Alberta. That in this time of recession the Alberta government is able to rely on vast savings from our times of prosperity. While he said this, I saw the fear in his eyes. Fear that this room full of graduating nurses (half of whom had interviews which were cancelled when the government of Alberta implemented the hiring freeze) will call him on the load of crap he is forking out. I don't think I've ever been more disappointed in my government than when they had the balls to stand up in front of us and tell us that we'd have a lot of opportunity after graduation.

Completing a degree is perhaps a greater accomplishement than I give it credit for. Instead of thinking all I have is a dog and a degreee I need to remember that "your[my] mountain is waiting...so get on your way!"

Living. Loving. Balance.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Home Home on the Range

Well, here I am in Breton.
Breton, Alberta.
Been here for a couple weeks now, although I've been driving all over the place, so it's not like I've actually been here much. I've driven almost 4000km in the past 2 weeks, and still have a Red Deer trip to see the fabulous Kelsey and then it's back to Winnipeg...probably on Saturday.

Not sure how badly I want to go back. I kind of want to stay. I love the mountains (we went to Jasper to see Jen) and I love my Edmonton friends (you know who you are!) and I love my family (they know who they are too). Luckily, church was about how God really does close doors for us soemtimes...and I think when there is a nurse hiring freeze it's a pretty closed door. Ha. Although it would be great to come back so that I could be closer...and be a better bridesmaid...CUZ I GET TO BE A BRIDESMAID NEXT SUMMER!!!!! Yahoo.

It's been a good trip. Lots of wonderful friends. Lots of family. IV time. NO WORK!!! But I'm missing my roommates (although I think they watched Paschendale and I so do not want to watch that movie). I figure I should go back to work and make money. I guess it's time to go back soon. Probably on Saturday since I still have grad and hang out time with the fabulous Kelsey, and the fabulous Megan, and whoever shows up at the fabulous Jess' bonfire Friday. (be there!!)

I wonder where I'll be. In the future. It's weird. My mom was married when she was 23. A lot of my friends are married or getting married or even parents already. I'm so not on that track. There are a lot of other friends who aren't married, getting married, or parents but it's harder to focus on that part. That is my goal. To be more content and to make my life more full. To laugh a lot. To get to know God in Winnipeg. To study and read His word. Love more. Be selfish less. Get over myself. Find balance.
Be myself.